9th February 2008 "Insomnia"

Life can be hard, but immortality is harder.

I arose that night in a terrible mood. I had tried, once more to sleep, despite the fact that I knew I couldn't. No matter how many times Il'divou reminded me of our "incapabilites" I could not help but ponder the facts that Medes had opened to us. In truth, I longed for sleep more than anything, and the idea that beings similar to our kind, different, yet the same, could rest, had to rest, confounded me. Eerily, it delighted me also, and I grew near insane at times, wishing for the ability until my eyes popped from their sockets.

Il'divou very idiotically stormed into my depression, all hands in the air and shouting. My reactions were swift, and mostly reflexive. We finished one point three six seconds later with him pinned to the wall, his hands still high above him. My lips were drawn back, my fangs clearly revealed, as he just looked at me blankly, very nonchalant, used to my mood swings.

Silently I drew back, releasing him slowly, and letting myself swim back to reality.

Il'divou waited until I was "myself", licked his lips, blinked his fine amber eyes, and began, knowing I would only pay attention if I was satisfied.

'There is an urgent matter which requires your attention, sir.'

I grinned, turning my back to him, looking around the wide circular room that resembled a wine cellar. It was also my bedroom.

'When is there not a matter which requires my attention?' I asked, knowing it to be true. Ever since I had dethroned Narcissus, I had found I was very popular indeed. Every moment someone wanted to consult me about something.

The butler-vampire was not amused. 'A very urgent matter, sir. It comes from Medes.'

I stopped, my eyes just having reached the huge four-poster bed that was mine (that was curiously also shaped like a coffin) and I was surprised.

'Medes?' I asked, my voice high, but not cold. Despite my almost constant grumpiness, I always felt a certain small joy whenever certain names were mentioned. Primarily it concerned "Delphina", but two others were "Eachann" and at the moment "Medes".

Il'divou smiled behind me. It was obvious from the way the shift in atmosphere changed from freezing to mildy happy.

'Yes, Medes. And about something rather important.'

'As you have said already,' I grumbled.

There was silence as Il'divou waited. Then I sighed, as humanly as I coudl achieve and turned back around.

'Fine,' I said, my shoulders aching to grow wings and fly. 'But this better be worth my while.'

'Oh believe me,' Il'divou said, joining my side to urge me into walking up the concrete steps. 'This will be worth your while, my lord. Especcially as it concerns his children.'

I stared at him. Shocked.